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[aislynn]

*gasp* Fandom wank has invaded my Doctor Who! It involves a Season 4 spoiler that I won't mention because, well, only jellyfrog would even care and SHE would be the worst one I was spoiling. ;) But bottom line, wank is currently busting a move ALL OVER MY FANDOM. Dude. I got right righteous tired of all the SPN wank even before it became TEH WANK OF DOOOOM!!! o_O ;)

By the way, I'm more than aware that fandom wank is in every fandom. ;) (If it wasn't, they'd have to find another name for it, right? ;) )

Also I made the penultimate mistake that I've been trying to avoid whilst working on a vid: I watched a vid rec for a really spectacular Doctor Who vid and now I feel:

1. Like a talentless twit

2. Like a boring, talentless twit

3. Like a boring, talentless twit who has boring, talentless ideas

4. Like a boring, talentless twit who has boring, talentless ideas and couldn't vid her way out of a paper bag if you gave her a map

5. Did I mention the Doctor Who wank? Wank...right there in my Doctor Who, I mean, can't you dig it? o_O

6. I need coffee

7. Except it's almost midnight and coffee would not really be a wise choice right now if I expect to close my eyes at some point tonight

8. Yet...I still would like some coffee (which is why I love Ianto on Torchwood; he always makes the coffee *waits patiently for a coffee-bearing Ianto to show up* ;) )

9. Speaking of showing up... My mini-Doctors aren't here yet. :( I wants them here NOW, yes, precioussssss... Note: This moment of impatience brought to you by the Gollum Foundation: when you positively, absolutely, need to whine about not having your action figures the Ring in your possession right frickin' now. ;)

10. Despite my choice of mood theme, I'm not actually infuriated, I just wanted to watch Nine yell at somebody... :P

The Uber-Angst is about a bit over half done and I keep hanging up on a couple of key places. *sigh* I've been using some audio clips because they fit in nicely with the story, IMO, and there were some accommodating places in the music for them. But now I'm worried that they're more distracting than helpful, which sucks. :S And the "big" one towards the end is much more of an involved production than I'd like and is waaaaay too choppy despite all of the work I've done to smooth it out. BLARGH! I've wasted all of my vidding time today trying to "save" this one spot! So I'm considering removing the audio part of it but then that'll make it harder for non-Whovians to understand what's happening at this point and will also put it out of balance with the rest of the vid because this will be the only instance in the song where there's no audio clips at that point.

*pouts*

On another note, I just heard a song that I've always liked but never expected to vid before and... Veronica, my evol vidding muse, sucker-punched me with A Naughty Idea for a DW vid. I'm not even sure if I could really pull it off, so it would probably be a waste of time anyway. Ah well, I'm not in business to start yet another DW vid right now, 'cause I'd still like to try and save the Uber-Angst. I may end up doing a no-audio version in addition to the audio one and just have to see which one I like better. :S Although I'd have to change the clips in those spots so I don't have a lot of talky clips with mouths flapping mutely all over the place. :S (You get enough of that anyway... DW just tends to have talky clips everywhere! O_O ;) )

Dude. I'm enjoying watching Nine yell a little too much... :P Fandom wank angers teh Doktor, yep... ;)

Welp, time to go put on my fandomwank!proof PJs and go to bed... ;) Nighty-night! *hugs you all* ♥♥♥!!!

Comments

[moondropz.livejournal.com]

Wank is teh suck! No matter what fandom it's visiting. Blah. I hate when there's wank-I prefer my lj to be a happy squeeful place. No, no, no wank. *Blocks it* LOL. Have I mentioned how wank makes my brain hurt? Because yeah. It soooo does. Ughh.
Now. Remember we talked about this before! Your vid will be yours-and that makes it special-and...yours ;-P I spam constatly-and others take the same theme and run with it. If I stopped because of that my lj would be pretty empty-lol. I don't care if it's been done-do it again and leave your amazingness on it ;-P My job as the happygodorky fairy is now done. ta!!! I so need sleep! *Slinks off*
*Huggles* ♥♥♥

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Now. Remember we talked about this before! Your vid will be yours-and that makes it special-and...yours ;-P I spam constatly-and others take the same theme and run with it. If I stopped because of that my lj would be pretty empty-lol. I don't care if it's been done-do it again and leave your amazingness on it ;-P My job as the happygodorky fairy is now done. ta!!!

"Happygodorky fairy," FTW! Anyway, you're completely right -- and I've got a block of concrete instead of a head apparently, 'cause I can't seem to get that to sink in properly, lol! ;) I made the exact same mistake as before: instead of just thinking about this as something I want to do for me, I got caught up in the whole "competition" of trying to do it better/different/shinier than anything I've ever done before. *eyeroll* Not that I'm going to just purposely make it bad (I hope! O_O ) but I just can't focus on that whole better/different/shinier thing at this point or it really makes me feel discouraged! :(

Thanks so much for reminding me of that! If not for my wonderful and very patient friends like you, I'd totally drive myself nutters! o_O *huggles back* ♥♥♥!!!

[moondropz.livejournal.com]

"Happygodorky fairy," FTW!

I sooo needed sleep at that point-lol! But you get what I meant at least ;-) It's just a vid-until you add your special touch to it. Then it's an amazing vid-no need to worry as I've watched enough of yours to know! But first and foremost-make it for your enjoyment! Because if you aren't happy making this? You will never see it for how amazing it truly is. So make it for you-the rest of us will enjoy it all the more then ;-P
*Smishes* ♥♥♥

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Days later and I'm still giggling over the "Happygodorky fairy" thing, lol! ;) Thanks so much, as always, for all your encouragement! *smishes you* And sorry I never answered this, I didn't realize I had let a whole bunch of comments go unanswered! O_O *huggles* ♥♥♥!!!

[moondropz.livejournal.com]

Days later I reach your comment! I am sorry! I am still desparately trying to catch up-lol. Ahh the happygodorky fairy was fun ;-P *G* And I was sleep deprived! But...happy! No worries-I am not caught up-I never will be at this ratre-lol!
*Huggles* ♥♥♥

[cylune9.livejournal.com]

er... I had to google what Fandom wank was and I still don't entirely understand the concept??? It that like people leaving anonymous, hurtful comment about specific plot point of fandom?

Oh, and audio is hard, very hard. Done properly and no one will notice, you mess it up, everybody will see. :(

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

D'oh, so sorry I didn't think that not everybody will have heard of the whole fandom wank thing! Whatever the official definition is, I think of it basically as whenever the fans start a war amongst themselves over something in the fandom they're involved in.

I've seen fandom wank start over things like one "faction" hating a new character while the other "faction" loves him/her. Then, the next thing you know, several of the big, active comms for that fandom have pages and pages of fighting going on, there's much name-calling and hurtful things said, people post huge entries about it, many people defriend each other over it, that sort of thing. It's a very hurtful and non-productive thing and it can get a real "angry mob of villagers with pitchforks and torches" feel to it before very long! O_O

Pretty much it's when the fans turn against each other, not just in a friendly discussion "let's agree to disagree" way but with a lot of spitefulness and venom. :(

Oh, and audio is hard, very hard. Done properly and no one will notice, you mess it up, everybody will see. :(

That is SO true! I usually avoid audio unless it just works out where it somehow turned out perfect all on its own, lol! As for this one... I'm probably going to leave it, even if it's not good enough for a "real" vid, just because I just like it. ;) Though I've still got to do something with that last incident of it because it's a mess right now! O_O But I think I can tame it down where I'll be satisfied with it, even if it wouldn't win a VP or win a contest somewhere!

*reminds self that she's supposed to be vidding for fun* ;) *hugs!* ♥!

[crickets.livejournal.com]

You are not a boring talentless twit. If it's the vid I'm thinking (hollywoodgrrl) then it's just a frakking amazing vid and ANYBODY would feel like a boring talentless twit after watching it. Even me. Hahaha. (Especially because I have a slight extreme case of vidders block at the mo...) Don't be so down on yourself. SERIOUSLY! Just! JUST JUST! Don't!

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

I did see hollywoodgrrl's vid but it was actually after I posted this! O_O *crawls in a hole of boring, talentless twittiness and pulls the top in over her*

And oh noes! Your vidder's block is still continuing? *sends you refreshed vidding mojo* There you go. Refreshed vidding mojo should dissolve away vidder's block in under 24 hours!*

;) ♥!

[crickets.livejournal.com]

Hey! I think that worked!

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Yay! ♥♥♥!!!

[turquoisetumult.livejournal.com]

1. Like a talentless twit
2. Like a boring, talentless twit
3. Like a boring, talentless twit who has boring, talentless ideas
4. Like a boring, talentless twit who has boring, talentless ideas and couldn't vid her way out of a paper bag if you gave her a map

LOL! But I think you're getting you confused with me! I better see a Doctor Who vid from you (even if I don't watch the show) because if I don't, I know you'll have given up and then no one will get to see your talent. Don't make me send Dean over there to kick your vidding butt. *points up at icon* See, he's stressed and SO not in a good mood so I'd try to avoid him if I were you. ;)


10. Despite my choice of mood theme, I'm not actually infuriated, I just wanted to watch Nine yell at somebody... :P

I think that's why a lot of people vid! Haha. I'm doing a SPN angst vid right now and I'm not really sad (okay, the song is uber-depressing so when I watched what I had so far, I kind of couldn't stop shaking, but that's not the point). Mostly, I look at Papa Winchester and think "He's so pretty when he's hurting... Must be where his sons get the same trait." :D

Anyway, good luck! *cut to Dean standing in a corner, tapping his foot, waiting for me to give him the order to attack visit Aislynn and her vidding muse*

*super(massive black hole)hugs* ♥

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

But I think you're getting you confused with me!

Ohhhhh, now Dean is saaaaaaad! See sad!Dean? *points* Sad!Dean doesn't like it when you dis your mad skillz. *shakes head* :( ;)

Mostly, I look at Papa Winchester and think "He's so pretty when he's hurting... Must be where his sons get the same trait." :D

Gah, that's so true!!! Can't wait to see your angst vid! :D

*cut to Dean standing in a corner, tapping his foot, waiting for me to give him the order to attack visit Aislynn and her vidding muse*

Ooo, sic him on Veronica the evol muse while he's in such a stressed mood, then he can come visit me after he's less...angry. :P ;)

Seriously though, I SO appreciate your encouragement and willingness to watch the stuff I've been doing, even though you don't watch the fandom itself. *smishes you liek woah* ;) ♥♥♥!!!

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Sorry, I should've realized that not everybody has been lucky enough *eyeroll* ;) to have run into fandom wank yet!

It's basically when fans start a war with each other over something in the fandom (see the answer I gave Cinthia up a few posts for more details ;) ). I've seen people get absolutely batcrazy over loving/hating a new character or over some new plot point or whatever. I mean, to the point where communities get overrun with arguing and name-calling and just general fanwar stuff! It's just a really, really nasty thing and nobody ever wins and people get their feelings hurt badly and friendships can even get ruined over it. :( It's definitely bad mojo! :(

I had to kinda chuckle at what you said about your scripts... I wrote a script for a writing class my senior year and the overwhelming consensus was it wasn't even as good as a bad TV show! :P ;) I actually gave a copy to a supposed friend of mine for him to read and he told me it was so bad he threw it away! O_O ;) ♥!

[mistojen.livejournal.com]

I saw some of that on fandom_wank at journalfen. *shakes head* If it's any consolation, that's NOTHIN lol

You're probably the least "talentless" person I know (read that twice, so you don't freak out and misread and cry or something lmao). I can't WAIT to see your vid. I LOVED your Bubbly vid and even though I hate that song now (stupid radio literally playing it once every hour, so I used to hear it 8 times a day, five days a week), it still makes me grin like an idiot when I watch your vid.

Hope you get your mini-doctors soon!

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Jen! *hugs!* Haven't seen you abouts here in a while! *squishes you*

I saw some of that on fandom_wank at journalfen. *shakes head* If it's any consolation, that's NOTHIN lol

Oh, I should've figured it was on fandom_wank by now! And believe me, I know it's nothing compared to Teh SPN Wank of Dooooooom that has gone around! I was just surprised to see it in DW! Why that surprised me, I dunno. I guess I thought that DW existed in some blissfully wank-free bubble, lol! ;)

I can't WAIT to see your vid.

Aw, thank you! I'm trying to go back and focus just on making something that I want to, rather than something that's going to be "good." (Although I would kinda like it to still be good, savvy? ;) ) I just can't try so frickin' hard to make it better/different/shinier/etc. than anything I've ever done/anything that's ever been done/anything that ever WILL be done, lol! ;)

Hope you get your mini-doctors soon!

Me, too! *fingers crossed* I really thought they'd get here this week because the seller isn't that far away! :S Of course, I don't know how quickly they ship and all that. The window they gave me was Dec 4 - 18! O_O Blarghhhhh!

*hugs you!* ♥♥♥!!!

[mistojen.livejournal.com]

Haven't seen you abouts here in a while! *squishes you*

*squishes you back* Ugh, I know, I'm so sorry...I've been kinda crap with commenting on a LOT of my flist, lately, now that I'm working two jobs and there's drama going on in the family and whatnot (nothing major...just a bunch of little stuff that's distracting).

haha Teh SPN Wank of Dooooom is probably the best way I've seen it referred to as lol Win. \o/

*big, squishy hugs and Winchester clones to make up for lost time*

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Oh, I didn't mean to be all Complainy McWhinyknickers or anything! *pauses to try and absorb the fact she just called herself Complainy McWhinyknickers* O_O Anyway, I certainly know you've been very busy! I've just missed seeing you! :D So sorry to hear about family drama going on along with all of the work stuff, too. :( *pets you* ♥

haha Teh SPN Wank of Dooooom is probably the best way I've seen it referred to as lol Win. \o/

Why, thank you! It just seemed the most appropriate thing to call it! ;)

*lots huggles back and Winchester clones -- and hey, let's throw in some Boone clones for old time's sake, huh? ;)* ♥♥♥!!!

[mistojen.livejournal.com]

Oh, no, I know; I just feel guilty that I've been so lax on my flist lately. You're not the only one I've been skimming and not commenting on... :(

Woo Boone clones!!! *fistpump*

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

I thought it was time to whip out the Boone clones again... ;) They never really go out of style, after all! ;) ♥♥♥!!!

[lostashleigh.livejournal.com]

*huge huggles*

You are soooo not a boring, talentless twit! You are Aislynn queen of awesomness! ;)

I think that everyone has them thoughts about themselves at somepoint or another. Hopefully you'll feel better about it all soon. :)

And as for the fandom wank stuff, ignore it! ;)

Oh and I hope The Doctors are with you soon! :)

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

*huge huggles back* Thank you so much, hon! I just really appreciate that!

Oh and I hope The Doctors are with you soon! :)

Me, too! I just know I'll feel a lot better then! :D ;) ♥♥♥!!!

[jellyfrog.livejournal.com]

Hmm, not only am I unfamiliar with wank, I didn't even know there were four seasons of Doctor Who. What kind of fan am I? :P

I'm sure that other DW vid isn't any better than yours. And even if the audio doesn't work out perfectly, the Uber-Angst is still going to be the greatest thing ever! I have no doubts at all on the matter. ;)

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

What kind of fan am I? :P

You're a carefully unspoiled one. ;) :D We're in between seasons 3 and 4 right now. They just had another 7 - 8 minute-ish long "Children in Need" special that fit between the gaps of s3 and the upcoming Christmas special, which is itself fitting in the gap between s3 and s4! ;) Not confusing or anything, huh? ;) I don't know how much, if anything, you know about season 3 (how are you doing on finishing season 2, btw? ;) ), so I'm trying to be vewwy vewwy carefwul[/end Elmer Fudd voice] about what I say! ;)

And even if the audio doesn't work out perfectly, the Uber-Angst is still going to be the greatest thing ever! I have no doubts at all on the matter. ;)

Awwwww! I hope that it's going to finally pull together! I'm going to take the rest of tonight and really make a push to finish it, since it's got just 56 seconds left to go! Wish me luck! *hugs!* ♥♥♥!!!

[jellyfrog.livejournal.com]

Ooh, good luck!!1! Wait, that was last night... How did it go? How's it looking? *bounce*

Hey, the "kinda-sorta voice post" tag in your list over there just reminded me... Did you ever see that I did the voice post meme?

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

How did it go? How's it looking?

I've got about 20 seconds left but considering they were the 20 seconds spread throughout the vid that I've skipped because they were trouble spots... I'm pretty badly stalled. *sigh*

Ooo and yes, I did just see your voice post meme! :D I tried to catch up a bit on some of my flist today. *halo* *snorts* ;)

*even more dramatic sigh* Now, to get back to staring broodingly at the Uber-Angst... Wish me luck! If I could just plug in these final remaining pieces, then it's done! ♥!